Helping artists take the leading role
in their daily off-stage lives.
Anyone who knows me knows that writing is not my strong suit. My spelling is terrible and my punctuation needs a lot of double-checking. All of the copy on this site is 100% my own but it was double and triple checked by several close friends and superior grammarians. So the last bit of this website to happen was this blog post. The website has been ready for months and I couldn’t get past writing a simple post.
Well, for the same reason many people come to work with me. I’ve been getting in my own way. That inner critic voice popping up saying things like: “you’ve got nothing worthwhile to say,” or “you’re not smart enough to write,” or “no one will care,” etc.
I’ve sat and stared at my blank computer page. Somehow writing seems so permanent. They are words that you can’t take back. They can be dissected and poured over like they were in English class. Written words are judged, compared to something else and found lacking, which is why I’ve spent months avoiding it.
When people come to work with me, it’s because they are ready to be accountable to themselves; because what they want is greater than what scares them. So, what do I want? A life coach isn’t a life expert; my life is just as screwy and messy as everyone else’s. But I get tremendous joy and fulfillment by listening to people, learning their stories, what drives them and what is holding them back. For some reason I have always been that person that people come to chat about these things and through coaching work I’ve found ways to help people make their lives better. By making their lives better it enriches mine. It’s a butterfly effect in a way. One good conversation or exchange filters out from those two people to the next two and so on. I want to make the world better, one person at a time.
So I decided to finally put keys to keyboard and write something, anything just to get in the game. Many of my coaching colleagues write wonderful posts that offer tools and guidance and “take aways.” I don’t think mine will quite work that way. I am holding the mirror up and working out my own inner thoughts like I am encouraging my clients to do. My clients, theater colleagues and friends inspire and encourage me everyday. So by facing this writing fear I hope to inspire them. I am going to endeavor creating a once-a-week post, be it video or written. Will it be the blog to end all blogs? Doubtful, but who knows?
Oh, my goodness, I did it! I actually wrote something that I don’t hate, and that sounds like me. My computer spelling and grammar check didn’t explode in the process! If you have a similar fear or desire to communicate that you just can’t bring yourself to do, please share it with me. By doing that you will A) give me blog material, and B) maybe by getting that fear out in front of you it will inspire someone else.
“Life is inherently risky. There is only one big risk you should avoid at all costs, and that is the risk of doing nothing.” ~Denis Waitley